The grudge

I have [Bb]nightmares each week 'bout that [Bb]Friday in May

One [Bb]phone call from you and my [Bb]entire world was changed

[Gm]Trust that you betrayed, confusion that still lingers

Took [Gm]everything I loved and crushed it in between your fingers

And I [Bb]doubt you ever think about the [Bb]damage that you did

But I [Bb]hold onto every detail like my [Bb]life depends on it

[Gm]My undying love, now I hold it like a grudge

Now I [Gm]hear your voice every time that I think I'm not enough

 

And I [Eb]try to be tough, but I wanna scream

 

And I [Bb]say I don't care, I say that I'm fine

But you know I can't let it go, I've tried, I've tried, I've tried for [Cm]so long

It takes [Gm]strength to forgive, but I [F]don't [Eb]feel strong

 

The [Bb]arguments that I've won [Bb]against you in my head

In the [Bb]shower, in the car, and in the [Bb]mirror before bed

Yeah, I'm so [Gm]tough when I'm alone, and I make you feel so guilty

And I [Gm]fantasize about a time you're a little xxxxin' sorry

And I [Bb]try to understand why you would [Bb]do this all to me

You [Bb]must be insecure, you must be [Bb]so unhappy

And I [Gm]know, in my heart, hurt people, hurt people

And we [Gm]both drew blood, but, man, those cuts were never equal

 

And I [Eb]try to be tough, but I wanna scream

 

And I [Bb]say I don't care, I say that I'm fine

But you know I can't let it go, I've tried, I've tried, I've tried for [Cm]so long

It takes [Gm]strength to [F]forgive, but [Eb]I don't feel [Bb]strong

 

[Gm]Ooh, ooh-ooh, do you [Cm]think I [Eb]deserved it all?

[Gm]Ooh, ooh-ooh, your [Cm]flower's filled with [Eb]vitriol

You [F]built me up to watch me fall

You [F]have everything, and you still want more

 

I [Eb]try to be tough, I try to be mean

But [Eb]even after all this, you're still everything to me

And I [Bb]know you don't care, I guess that that's fine

But [Bb]you know I can't let it go, I've tried, I've tried, I've tried for [Cm]so long

It takes [Gm]strength to [F]forgive, but I'm not [Eb]quite sure I'm [F]there yet

It takes [Gm]strength to [F]forgive, but [Eb] [Bb]